All I can say is: You’re a coward. Not because you couldn’t tell me you didn’t want to be with me with me for whatever reason. I’ll admit, if the roles were reversed, I would have had a hard time too. But you’re a coward because you were too scared to try. You were too scared to try to see that we would have been good. We would have been great.
For once things are honestly looking up in my life. Maybe it’s not the exact things I pictured myself asking for, but for right now it’s the best thing I could look for. The places I’ve been going lately provide me with the time I’ve needed to keep my head steering clear of any bad thoughts. You never know who your friends are in life, so it’s best to never get too close to any one person. I’ll never consider anyone my best friend again, except the ones I’ve grown up with and know they’ll always be there for me. Yeah, I’ll have really good friends, but that’s all they’ll ever be. To say I don’t miss the way things used to be would be a lie. It shaped me into the person I used to be- the happiest me I’ve ever been in my lifetime. All of the memories are real, but these days most people just feel the way they’re told to. I feel like everyone’s watching me these days to see what I’ll do next, and I hate it. I can only hope everything turns out as great as it use to be.
Today, I finally realized that thing are actually looking up for me. The small things don’t bother me, and the day has finally come that I laugh at all of the stupid things that have happened lately. Most of this came from the realization that girls will be girls. They’re manipulative, conniving, and will do literally anything they can to break you and be the best there is. You can’t let this bother you. You have to keep being you and let them look like the stupid ones. NEVER look at a situation and think of all of the hurtful things you could do to get back at someone. Well, you can think it, just don’t do it. Karma will handle the situation in time. Run from drama as fast as you can.
I used to be the exact definition of a bitch. If someone hurt me, I would think of the most crucial and hurtful way to get back at them without even realizing it. I don’t really understand why I’ve done some of the things I have, but my karma has definitely set in. I’ve hurt, but now it’s time to smile and move on with my life.
Not saying that everyday will be perfect, because just behind my eyes are switches that could turn back on, to clear away today till all the memories are gone, but for the majority, it’s all gonna be all right. :)